Never mind that weird Trust post, I was telling myself to trust God. So I said it like 50 times and it still didn’t help. More on that later.
So, after going through a quarter-life crisis of gigantic and incapacitating proportions, I decided I wanted a time out. I needed to talk to God so He could let me in on what on earth was going on with me.
I set out yesterday (took leave from work), treading across unknown paths and walking down deserted dusty winding roads to a place I knew I would find Him. I know He is everywhere but I needed to get away from the craziness of the city, the noise and distractions.
I made it, exhausted and hopeful, to a haven, a sanctuary of serenity, silence and beauty. Instantly, just by walking in, my whole being was affected. I knew I would feel Him here. I knew we would meet here.
And meet we did. It was perfect. More than I expected or hoped.
Silence is where God really speaks.
I wish I could always know this. I wish I could always take the time to be utterly solitary and silent everyday because He would speak to me so clearly and life would be so much easier!
I went there with so many questions, so much hurt and confusion…I came out with ALL the answers and peace and joy to boot. WHAT! It was A-MAZING!
I got answers on the Trust thing too. And many many many more.
The sad part about all this is that I had to go through this crisis to feel the urge to go and seek out God. I don’t want it to always be that I only look for Him when I am in a bad place. But, despite how horrible my last week was, if it’s the only way I would have been inspired to go off on this retreat, it was definitely worth it.
So, so worth it! 🙂