The song above actually falls under my “old school” rock collection. Yeah, it’s not really old school, just that Jeremy Camp was one of the first rock artistes I listened to, loved and became a fan of.
The song I Still Believe is one of my personal favorites because of the message and the reason behind it.
Jeremy camp lost his first wife after a few years of marriage after she succumbed to cancer [sad, sad, sad]
This is a song he wrote after her death, chronicling his pain, vulnerability and unwavering faith.
After all this time, this song still gets me. I mean, how do you sing I still believe in your faithfulness when your young wife is dead and you are in so much pain you can hardly move, talk or think?
I guess every time I hear this song, I am humbled by Jeremy Camp’s faith. That’s the kind of faith I long for. I want to believe in God NO MATTER WHAT.
Heart-wrenching, grief-striking, hope-killing, depressing things aside…just to have that unwavering unshaken faith. Wow.
I so wanna be him when I grow up 🙂
Scattered words and empty thoughts
seem to pour from my heart
I’ve never felt so torn before
seems I don’t know where to start
but it’s now that I feel Your grace falls like rain
from every fingertip, washing away my pain
I still believe in Your faithfulness
I still believe in Your truth
I still believe in Your holy word
even when I don’t see, I still believe
Though the questions still fog up my mind
with promises I still seem to bear
even when answers slowly unwind
it’s my heart I see You prepare
but its now that I feel Your grace fall like rain
from every finger tip, washing away my pain
The only place I can go is into your arms
where I throw to you my feeble prayers
in brokenness I can see that this was your will for me
Help me to know You are near
– Jeremy Camp