Waking up to an argument with my sister has put my day in a disarray. It’s a mess between my best friend too and my mother and it’s just a mess. I’m tired of always being in the middle and always having these great expectations being put on me.
My first response, as usual, was to get away – from everyone and everything. I am somewhere where taking a bus to the coast would be very easy. If only I was that crazy or had the money. But despite this being my first response, I never follow through with it – partly because I don’t like to give up and partly because I believe running away never really solves anything.
So I have to make some tough decisions, apologise, try to move past everything…and that’s hard for me. Because I don’t like to confront ugly situations. But sadly life is made up of ugly situations and beautiful ones. Sadly this isn’t the last of it; a truckload is yet to come. Guess I better get my notepad out and take notes, learn from this. And forgive and reconcile. Because life is too short and life has to move on and I need people and all that jazz.
Life sucks sometimes.
And I feel fine
But I know the same does not apply to you
I know the same does not apply to you
So I guess that I’ll curl up and die, too.
Clinging to the remnants of perfection
Like most do after they break it
Not knowing which direction’s the correct one
Do I discard or remake it?